New Chapter – Episode 1

This post is actually written back in 3 Sept. 2021 and I just only had the time and guts to publish it today (Almost a year later, oops.)

It’s quiet mind-blowing to think I’m currently setting my feet miles away from home, now on the wide horizon of Washington. Continuing my education abroad has been a dream of mine that I never thought would actually happen, and it really IS happening. I used to think that spending years solitary in a foreign land would make me on the verge of madness and anxiety, but it’s honestly the best decision I’ve ever made.

I have to admit that it’s not easy. In fact, there are times where I was bursting with tears because surviving the first few seasons can be quite stressful, with me still figuring out this new chapter as if it’s still a mystery. But at the same time, everything is so colorful and exhilarating, I got to meet many new faces that taught me new perspectives and experiences.

I heard the term of “breaking a generational curse” awhile ago and I can honestly say that it describes me current story perfectly. Basically, it is a term that is used for the first person in their family to ever do something big, whether you’re starting a business, dropping out from school, or even studying abroad for the first time.

However, once someone actually do it, it can make them go through several hardships, hence the name “curse”. It’s something that most people wanted to do, but only some have the courage to actually do it. All they think about is the risk if they choose that option, not focusing more on what advantages and opportunities it can bring.

There might be some pride gained from becoming that person, but the pressure still actually exists. When I came to this place and spent more time with my friends almost every day, I tend to forget that what I’m experiencing is actually a privilege and I can’t meet them without the hard work my parents went through. Sometimes I forget that what I’m doing here is to get the best education they can ever give me, and not going here merely for the purpose of fun.