We all know that the future sucks. In fact, I just had an emotional stress thinking about it few minutes ago. However, during the meltdown, I got a sort of epiphany that made me write this. I feel that I’m incapable of being good enough for myself, others, and the world. That I may fail and be unsuccessful in the real world.
The future sucks because it’s scary. There’s nothing scarier than uncertainty, they said. One weird example I can come up is getting a present but you don’t know who it’s from. All you know it’s either from Santa or your childhood bully, both are in front of you waiting to open the present.
Of course you want a gift from Santa, the worst thing he could ever do is to eat all your cookies. However you don’t actually know. It’s the same with our future; a surprise, waiting for you to reveal it. The scary thing is that we don’t know whether if the future is on our side or the complete opposite.
We are always been demanded by our closest people, a random guy on the Internet, or teachers to be extremely confident, rich, able to maintain many friendships, and probably create a happy family. I used to see it as an unrealistic thing to be fighting for, cause humans are not that perfect, right?
But as I grow older, and seeing other people’s accomplishments through the vast alternate universe called the internet really changed my perspective. And because of that, I would repeatedly doubt myself, even till now, minutes ago.
I read the newest blog post from reasonandmeaning.com with the title “How close you can be to another person?” and the writer said that the number rating of closeness towards oneself can be from the range 0 to 10. And the statement that stays with me the most is that many people would argue that they have a “10”, being the highest, relationship rating with their own self. However this opinion actually is not entirely true.
He mentioned that humans are always stuck in self-deception. They are constantly being irrational and clueless when it comes to relationships with themselves. And a not surprising but important fact is that others most often know you better than you know yourself.
Probably a thing that I’d like to remind you is that not anything is going to be permanent, but your thoughts can. So, don’t be scared about the future (I actually have to remind myself of this) because like it or not, we are just tiny little beings that really don’t play an important role in the universe. We just got to change our negative thoughts and basically fuck it.
To add up, the previous statement that John Messerly, the writer of reasonandmeaning.com, wrote about us being the most clueless about our own self should have made us realize that there are strengths and talents that we actually possess that other people can see, excluding ourselves. Heck, you’re probably someone’s successful person 🙂
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